Curbside Prophet.

Hmm what to write about....my life has been pretty hum drum lately. Spelling Bee is over. No more theatre classes. I'm just finishing up some main campus classes in order to graduate. I know...I'm bored too. haha.

Ummm...lets see. I went to Savannah to audition for GTC. This was my third year going and I was feeling pretty confident about the audition. When I got up there though I messed up and sang off key. It really shocked me. I don't sing off key very often...barely ever so it sucked that one of the only times that has happened was for an important audition. I was hoping maybe my monologue would be enough to get me through but it wasn't. I was not passed on. I tried not to let it affect me too much. I mean yeah it sucks but GTC is not the end all be all. My career will go on. Still, its hard not to beat myself up a little bit. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to my work and it has been a really long time since I've blown an audition like that. I'm just trying not to get too hung up on it.

Good news though! I got nominated for ACTF for my performance in Spelling Bee. That is very exciting to me. It is such an honor and I'm very proud of myself, as well as EJ for getting nominated too. Its always nice to have your hard work recognized by other people. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to go or not because it is next semester and I will no longer be at CSU, but if I have no jobs lined up then I don't see why I shouldn't. I'm just going to treat it like I am going until I find out about future work, which means finding scenes and a partner. Yay for something to do! lol.

Other news, I am currently in a new relationship. This is not where I thought I would be at all when I started this semester, but I can't deny that I'm pleased by it. Still, I've been struggling with getting used to it. After Eddie I spent a year learning to be independant. I had to rediscover myself and now that I'm starting a new relationship I'm scared of losing everything I've worked on. I'm sure it won't happen because I'm conscious of it, but after spending so much time working on being alone it is weird to let another person in. Not to mention I have serious trust issues so I'm kind of scared of getting hurt. My philosophy though is to take it one day at a time. I've been very happy with everything so far so I'm excited to see where it goes. :)

anyways...now you are all caught up on my life. The end.