I'm feeling overwhelmed.
Extremely overwhelmed.
I have so much going on right now. Literally with Crazy for You, 19 hours, and my Senior Acting Recital I barely have any time to breathe or think. I also spent my entire weekend doing One Act callbacks which all in all I feel pretty ok about. I would like very much like to be cast but if it doesn't work out that way then it might be a good thing too because of how incredibly busy I am. Still, I welcome any opportunity I get to work on my acting.
I just hope that I can get everything done on time in order to graduate. I'm stressin big time.
SETC is coming up soon and I'm excited although very stressed about it. It seems like everybody went and found people to room with and drive up there with except for me. Luckily I found Janine but I would still like to fill our room completely so it would be cheaper, still, two is better than one so I will be grateful for what I can find. I really hope that I can line up a job right out of college.
Also London is coming up very soon and I'm very excited!
Ok well I have to go make a to do list right now so until next time I write...which who knows when that will be since I have no time. haha.
Au Revoir!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Catch A Falling Star and Put It In Your Pocket.
I'm mainly trying to fill time before class. I got up waaaay earlier than I needed to today although its kind of nice cuz it gives me time for my hair to dry which takes forever of course.
So my plan to stay positive this week...it failed. Majorly. I blame the tell Eddie what I really think plan. It didn't go well. Why did I think it would? Some people just can't seem to communicate with each other no matter how hard we try. Its like we are speaking a different language sometimes. He will never understand where I'm coming from. I'm trying to accept that even though its really hard. I just have a lot of trouble letting go...especially when I still care.
but anyways enough of that. I went out on Saturday night with Robin and Richard. Then we met up with Liz, Stephanie, Heather, and Taylor at the Loft. It was really fun. I had a good time. I have to say its really nice having friends here in Columbus. Even if I'm not that close to some of them...its nice to have people to talk to when I'm having a bad day and then people to go be silly with and hang out with on a regular basis. I have to say that its the best thing that has come out of everything that has happened with Eddie. I have real friends here....a good number of them...which I haven't had since my freshman year really. I was so isolated for so long and so unhappy. Its nice to get to be me again.
anyways I have to go catch the shuttle now for math class. *sigh* math....lol.
So my plan to stay positive this week...it failed. Majorly. I blame the tell Eddie what I really think plan. It didn't go well. Why did I think it would? Some people just can't seem to communicate with each other no matter how hard we try. Its like we are speaking a different language sometimes. He will never understand where I'm coming from. I'm trying to accept that even though its really hard. I just have a lot of trouble letting go...especially when I still care.
but anyways enough of that. I went out on Saturday night with Robin and Richard. Then we met up with Liz, Stephanie, Heather, and Taylor at the Loft. It was really fun. I had a good time. I have to say its really nice having friends here in Columbus. Even if I'm not that close to some of them...its nice to have people to talk to when I'm having a bad day and then people to go be silly with and hang out with on a regular basis. I have to say that its the best thing that has come out of everything that has happened with Eddie. I have real friends here....a good number of them...which I haven't had since my freshman year really. I was so isolated for so long and so unhappy. Its nice to get to be me again.
anyways I have to go catch the shuttle now for math class. *sigh* math....lol.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
My goals for the week.
1) To continue to work out at least a little bit even though Crazy for You rehearsals have started.
2) To make time for my friends even though I'm incredibly busy
3) To tell Eddie what I really think.
4) To do my best at homework, school in general, and the million other things that I have to do.
5) To give myself alone time when I need it and not worry about dissapointing people
6) To Stay positive no matter what.
Last night was my negativity night. I cried, broke down, and gave into the stress. Now that thats over, its time to refocus. I will make it through this semester. It will happen. The end.
1) To continue to work out at least a little bit even though Crazy for You rehearsals have started.
2) To make time for my friends even though I'm incredibly busy
3) To tell Eddie what I really think.
4) To do my best at homework, school in general, and the million other things that I have to do.
5) To give myself alone time when I need it and not worry about dissapointing people
6) To Stay positive no matter what.
Last night was my negativity night. I cried, broke down, and gave into the stress. Now that thats over, its time to refocus. I will make it through this semester. It will happen. The end.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Exhausted.
So...it is the third day back at school and I am completely tuckered out already. I'm actually kind of starting to worry about this semester because
1) I have yet to have some time to myself in the evenings even though I have a private room...I see this as both a good thing and a bad thing.
2) Some of my classes are going to be really tough. Particularly the theatre classes this semester.
3) I haven't even factored in rehearsals yet and those are going to be really rough I can tell.
Still I am enjoying my time back in Columbus. It is nice to have a private room so far because at least I do get a little bit of time to myself even if it is just a few minutes before I fall asleep and also I don't get woken up anymore. Thank goodness because I'm going to need a good nights sleep every night to get me through all of this.
I feel like turning 22 has brought responsibility into my life. People always ask you if you feel different after your birthdays. "How does it feel being 22 now?" I say that it feels like being an adult. An actual adult who has to make hard decisions and be responsible. This is something I am starting to realize and put into effect now.
Anyways...I just thought I would give a little update. But seriously I'm about to fall asleep at the keyboard so I'm going to go to bed now. Sweet dreams!
1) I have yet to have some time to myself in the evenings even though I have a private room...I see this as both a good thing and a bad thing.
2) Some of my classes are going to be really tough. Particularly the theatre classes this semester.
3) I haven't even factored in rehearsals yet and those are going to be really rough I can tell.
Still I am enjoying my time back in Columbus. It is nice to have a private room so far because at least I do get a little bit of time to myself even if it is just a few minutes before I fall asleep and also I don't get woken up anymore. Thank goodness because I'm going to need a good nights sleep every night to get me through all of this.
I feel like turning 22 has brought responsibility into my life. People always ask you if you feel different after your birthdays. "How does it feel being 22 now?" I say that it feels like being an adult. An actual adult who has to make hard decisions and be responsible. This is something I am starting to realize and put into effect now.
Anyways...I just thought I would give a little update. But seriously I'm about to fall asleep at the keyboard so I'm going to go to bed now. Sweet dreams!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Random Thoughts
Ok here are a couple of random thoughts.
1) I am soo excited about studying abroad. I seriously LOVE to travel and I can't wait for all the learning opportunities that will be available to me overseas. I mean this scholasticly (sp?) and also life experiences. I just want it to hurry up and get here.
2) It has been nice seeing my friends from high school. They are good people. :)
3) I am wondering how the hell I'm going to get through this upcoming semester. Even my weekends for the entire semester are completely booked almost with social events, auditions, and conferences/school requirements.
4) The more time I spend being single the more the thought of committment terrifies me. I like being close to men and to have them be invested in me but I don't want to actually invest my feelings into them. Does that make me a bad person or a smart person?
5)I don't want to live at home once I graduate...but it wouldn't make sense for me not to when I'm trying to save up money.
6)I need to drink more water. It would be good for me.
7) I am addicted to looking at expensive clothes online that I could never afford without winning the lottery.
yeah ok thats about it for now.
1) I am soo excited about studying abroad. I seriously LOVE to travel and I can't wait for all the learning opportunities that will be available to me overseas. I mean this scholasticly (sp?) and also life experiences. I just want it to hurry up and get here.
2) It has been nice seeing my friends from high school. They are good people. :)
3) I am wondering how the hell I'm going to get through this upcoming semester. Even my weekends for the entire semester are completely booked almost with social events, auditions, and conferences/school requirements.
4) The more time I spend being single the more the thought of committment terrifies me. I like being close to men and to have them be invested in me but I don't want to actually invest my feelings into them. Does that make me a bad person or a smart person?
5)I don't want to live at home once I graduate...but it wouldn't make sense for me not to when I'm trying to save up money.
6)I need to drink more water. It would be good for me.
7) I am addicted to looking at expensive clothes online that I could never afford without winning the lottery.
yeah ok thats about it for now.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
So This is Christmas
Right now I'm feeling very good. Although this might be because I am on 10 Mg of Perkiset right now...I feel like there is more to it.
Its Christmas break for one. I am so incredibly happy to be home and be surrounded by family. I feel kind of bad because I have been very cranky and bitchy to them since I've been home but I mean come on...I just got my wisdom teeth out and I'm in a lot of pain so I feel like I have a semi good excuse there.
I have finished all of my Christmas Cards so now all I need to do is buy stamps and mail them out. Once I completely recover from my wisdom teeth I'm going to go and buy Emily a gift for her bridal shower which I'm excited about. The theme is basically different times of the day and I got Cocktail Hour. A very fun hour to shop for. :) I also can't wait to put up the Christmas tree and decorate it while listening to Christmas songs. I love Christmas so much. Its such a wonderful time of year.
So far most of my grades have been posted and I've gotten all A's and B's. I'm waiting on my grade for French which will most likely be an A...but might be a high B depending on how I did on my final. And I'm not quite sure about my Seminar in Auditions class. Its the only one I'm really kind of nervous about so I hope she posts it soon so that I can stop worrying.
Umm other than that things are going well. There is a guy in my life who is interested in me and I am interested in him...although I am hesitant to take it anywhere so I'm just gonna follow my instincts with it and whenever it feels right is whenever I will actually pursue it. still...we went on a sort of date the other day and it was really fun and cute. I enjoyed myself a lot. So we'll just see how that is.
Also...another wonderful thing that is going for me is that I am finally free from my bitch of a roommate. I literally have never in my life met somebody I did not like more and living with her was a nightmare. Being around her was a nightmare. All the negative energy that she put into that room put a lot of stress on me and made it impossible for me to relax in my own bedroom so now that I am moving out I know that things will be a lot better for me. A LOT better. Plus not only am I getting away from her but also I'm getting a private room which is something that will make my life better. I really need some privacy especially when I get stressed out...sometimes I cry and sometimes I freak out and somtimes I just HAVE to be alone in order to truly relax. So I'm really excited about it. And I'm really excited about getting to decorate the way I want to.
Life is just really good right now. That is basically the gist of this entry. And on a brighter note still...I am finally getting over him. Its happening slowly but surely and that is wonderful. Ok. I've written enough for now.
Much love to everybody who reads this.
Its Christmas break for one. I am so incredibly happy to be home and be surrounded by family. I feel kind of bad because I have been very cranky and bitchy to them since I've been home but I mean come on...I just got my wisdom teeth out and I'm in a lot of pain so I feel like I have a semi good excuse there.
I have finished all of my Christmas Cards so now all I need to do is buy stamps and mail them out. Once I completely recover from my wisdom teeth I'm going to go and buy Emily a gift for her bridal shower which I'm excited about. The theme is basically different times of the day and I got Cocktail Hour. A very fun hour to shop for. :) I also can't wait to put up the Christmas tree and decorate it while listening to Christmas songs. I love Christmas so much. Its such a wonderful time of year.
So far most of my grades have been posted and I've gotten all A's and B's. I'm waiting on my grade for French which will most likely be an A...but might be a high B depending on how I did on my final. And I'm not quite sure about my Seminar in Auditions class. Its the only one I'm really kind of nervous about so I hope she posts it soon so that I can stop worrying.
Umm other than that things are going well. There is a guy in my life who is interested in me and I am interested in him...although I am hesitant to take it anywhere so I'm just gonna follow my instincts with it and whenever it feels right is whenever I will actually pursue it. still...we went on a sort of date the other day and it was really fun and cute. I enjoyed myself a lot. So we'll just see how that is.
Also...another wonderful thing that is going for me is that I am finally free from my bitch of a roommate. I literally have never in my life met somebody I did not like more and living with her was a nightmare. Being around her was a nightmare. All the negative energy that she put into that room put a lot of stress on me and made it impossible for me to relax in my own bedroom so now that I am moving out I know that things will be a lot better for me. A LOT better. Plus not only am I getting away from her but also I'm getting a private room which is something that will make my life better. I really need some privacy especially when I get stressed out...sometimes I cry and sometimes I freak out and somtimes I just HAVE to be alone in order to truly relax. So I'm really excited about it. And I'm really excited about getting to decorate the way I want to.
Life is just really good right now. That is basically the gist of this entry. And on a brighter note still...I am finally getting over him. Its happening slowly but surely and that is wonderful. Ok. I've written enough for now.
Much love to everybody who reads this.
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