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I was too lazy to come up with a title for this entry...so there we go.

I lost my scan card. Like really lost it...not sure what I'm going to do about that. I'm also about to go to a very girly kitchen themed bridal shower....it makes me laugh. I'm perplexed really. What the hell do you do at those things anyways...lol.

So I love how the second you put a title on something...any title not even that serious...things get weird. Lovely. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother with men anymore. I just wind up getting hurt or wind up utterly confused. haha. Its funny because I try so hard to be that woman who isn't clingy and gives the guy some space. I can go for days without texting them but the second I do text them with anything they get paranoid on me and categorize me into that clingy category. So really its a lose lose situation. Why bother then. Thats the question.

especially when no man right now is going to take his place. I hate that I'm still upset over this breakup and I hate that I miss him and I hate that he talks to me like we are friends and I hate that I talk back...because I can't be mean to him. I hate that he always manages to get whatever he wants from me...even now. Anyways...I'm done being a crybaby.

Just had to rant for a bit. The End.

A Feeling

I have a feeling that things are about to get messy.
I have a feeling that things are about to get complicated

I don't know. Lately I feel like I should just lock myself away in my room and not interact with anybody. Everything seems to be going wrong right now. My world is a whirlwind of people, places, events, and experiences. Sometimes I can't quite keep up. Oh well. Life goes on. :)

People

I hate inconsiderate people who don't seem to understand that they can't just walk around doing whatever they want without consequences.

Sleepin a Dream About You.

The title has nothing to do with this entry. Its just the song that's stuck in my head right now. hah.

So I know its been awhile since I've written. Just been busy. Ever since I got back from New York I have been going non stop. Lets see what all has been happening. I got assigned a senior project. Its a senior acting recital which was my first choice so I'm very excited about it. It looks like I am going to be able to graduate on time. Still just thinking about all the stuff I have to do next semester in order to insure that I do in fact graduate on time is really really stressfull. I will most likely be taking 19 hours as well as working on my Senior Project. I also got cast in Crazy for You in the chorus and am understudying the lead role so that will keep my evenings busy.

Another good thing is that I got passed on at GTC so I will be going to SETC next semester in March or whenever it is. I'm also going to try to do UPTAS and Unifieds to see if I can line up work for next year.

Lets see what else...I am going to go to London in May. At first I was not thrilled just because it costs so much money and the fact that I have to do it instead of it being a choice in order to graduate...but the more I think about it the more excited I get. I've always wanted to travel outside of the United States and if I go to London that means that I can go other places too. AKA IRELAND!!! One life goal checked off the list. haha.

Umm other than all this stuff I have been doing ok. I have just been trying to go out and spend time with friends. Make new friends that kind of thing...but sometimes I still feel very alone even when I'm surrounding myself with people. Doesn't help that he has moved on completely and is happy now and doesn't seem to miss me at all. It hurts to think about...even when I know its better this way. I know with time I will get to a point where I don't care anymore either. I'm already getting there. Just need more time.

so yeah anyways there's my update. the end.