My goals for the week.
1) To continue to work out at least a little bit even though Crazy for You rehearsals have started.
2) To make time for my friends even though I'm incredibly busy
3) To tell Eddie what I really think.
4) To do my best at homework, school in general, and the million other things that I have to do.
5) To give myself alone time when I need it and not worry about dissapointing people
6) To Stay positive no matter what.

Last night was my negativity night. I cried, broke down, and gave into the stress. Now that thats over, its time to refocus. I will make it through this semester. It will happen. The end.

Exhausted.

So...it is the third day back at school and I am completely tuckered out already. I'm actually kind of starting to worry about this semester because
1) I have yet to have some time to myself in the evenings even though I have a private room...I see this as both a good thing and a bad thing.
2) Some of my classes are going to be really tough. Particularly the theatre classes this semester.
3) I haven't even factored in rehearsals yet and those are going to be really rough I can tell.

Still I am enjoying my time back in Columbus. It is nice to have a private room so far because at least I do get a little bit of time to myself even if it is just a few minutes before I fall asleep and also I don't get woken up anymore. Thank goodness because I'm going to need a good nights sleep every night to get me through all of this.

I feel like turning 22 has brought responsibility into my life. People always ask you if you feel different after your birthdays. "How does it feel being 22 now?" I say that it feels like being an adult. An actual adult who has to make hard decisions and be responsible. This is something I am starting to realize and put into effect now.

Anyways...I just thought I would give a little update. But seriously I'm about to fall asleep at the keyboard so I'm going to go to bed now. Sweet dreams!

Random Thoughts

Ok here are a couple of random thoughts.

1) I am soo excited about studying abroad. I seriously LOVE to travel and I can't wait for all the learning opportunities that will be available to me overseas. I mean this scholasticly (sp?) and also life experiences. I just want it to hurry up and get here.

2) It has been nice seeing my friends from high school. They are good people. :)

3) I am wondering how the hell I'm going to get through this upcoming semester. Even my weekends for the entire semester are completely booked almost with social events, auditions, and conferences/school requirements.

4) The more time I spend being single the more the thought of committment terrifies me. I like being close to men and to have them be invested in me but I don't want to actually invest my feelings into them. Does that make me a bad person or a smart person?

5)I don't want to live at home once I graduate...but it wouldn't make sense for me not to when I'm trying to save up money.

6)I need to drink more water. It would be good for me.

7) I am addicted to looking at expensive clothes online that I could never afford without winning the lottery.


yeah ok thats about it for now.