And I'm Still Hurting

Ok....so I have had an excellent week so far...but this weekend, Idk. All of the sudden I find myself remembering and being sad all over again. Idk...I guess it was bound to happen. I guess as much as you would like to believe that you are getting over a break up and you are fine, deep down you are still hurting. My parents were right...time is the only thing that can really heal me. I just wish it would speed up. I'm impatient...I've always been an impatient person. I want to move on with my life but sometimes I get stuck in my memories. Its so easy to remember the good things and not the bad. But I can't go back...and if I were given the choice I wouldn't truly want to. The only way is forward and through.

A Glimmer of Hope.

So I've had a rough week. Breaking up is hard. But all in all I think I'm doing pretty well...or as well as I can be doing with the situation. Sometimes I feel lonely...so incredibly lonely, but there are other times that I feel strong like I could do anything I set my mind too. I'm hoping that with more time the strong moments will last longer and longer until that is how I feel all the time. I've never not had a guy in my life. Somebody to run to when things get tough. Maybe this will build character. I mean...I just have to believe that God knows whats best for me. Maybe he knew that I needed to spend some time by myself in order to prepare me for when I graduate and have to start over in a new city not knowing anybody. I think this situation will help me. Plus I'm out of an unhealthy relationship that I honestly thought there was no way out of. So yeah...I'm trying to look on the bright side of things.

In other news I'm really starting to consider my options about where I am going to be living after I graduate. I've been very focused on NY and yes I will most likely end up there. But I think I need to visit around and see other places. Its just hard to find time to do that because it costs money to stay places. I want to look at Seattle, Chicago, Phenix, Denver, Boston, and LA as well as the big apple. We'll see. I am going to NY in October...now by myself instead of with Eddie. I want to try and go on an audition and see how it goes. I will keep you guys updated on how it goes. :)

Oh...last but not least. God's Ear went up and is now over. I thought it went really well. I'm sad its over because I was really starting to feel bonded to the cast around the time we went up but it'll be nice to have some free time on my hands to contemplate and work on homework and figure stuff out.

anyways thats it for now. Thanks for reading. :)

My First Blog

Well....this is my first blog. I decided to create this account not just to share my interests and feelings on the web but really more for me. A sort of catharsis if you will. I am at a point right now in my life where I need to rediscover myself. I am about to graduate and move to a city alone and I need to get a firmer idea of who I am and what I want and what I need to do to get there. But this won't all be sad entries and angry rants I promise. I want to put fun things on here too.

so anyways...thats all I'm going to say for this blog. I will write again soon. :)